2009, you were expected to be a kind year to me. But instead I faced brutal hate and disappointment from both my friends and my family. See I was excited because this was to be the last year of my public school life and an expected smooth transition into a great college life. But look at the end result, I am neither happy or sucessful. And if you recall what my mom had done to me not so long ago, you would know that it was anything but a pleasen trip. Not only did my own family push me away but even my bestfriends since middle school turned thier betrwayed me, finding a more suited face to replace, only to later be backslashed from the one they called "thier love". And after I graduated highschool...oh thats when things almost got out of hand. After working for over a month I came to see myself coming short handed to living in Chicago. Had to throw my plans out the window and worked for a couple of more months, hoping that maybe I will see Columbia Chicago College soon enough. Recalling the pleasent memories in the city with shoulders. Yes I believe in truth that in the 4 days of being in chicago was the closest I have ever felt to happiness in a very long time. But little was my fortune and so I returned without eye contact and without a mope. But to summarize this altogether 2009, you created separation from my family and beloved bestfriends, you shattered dreams and once lasting hope, and most of all you have shown me where the world has placed me- in the lowest of very lows where even outcasts are stuck up before me.
So lets hope this year may be different, lets hope I will see Chicago once again, that smiles will be my common expression. And may God give me a better obsession or better yet a soon to be wife. I don't want to see 2009 in my long life time, ever again. Because if 2010 is as the same, then closer is my life to an end.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment